The turning point in your journey is a funny one. You won’t reach it until you find acceptance, and even at this point of genuine acceptance, you may not reach the turning point at all.
I have recently hit that point.
You see, the turning point is the point in which you can disconnect yourself from the romantic relationship that you once had with the person that has betrayed you. This will enable you to come together, putting your differences and feelings aside. This reason may be due to a family illness, for your child, or even simply to attend the same event.
As you know, Terry is mentally ill. He still needs my support. For quite a while, I was unable to give him this. The betrayal was too raw, and the thought of him back with his ex-wife was too much for me.
However, one day I woke up, and realised that I had reached the turning point. I was able to accept what had happened, and support him through the tough journey that he has ahead. This is quite a refreshing realisation, because it shows quite how far you have come within your own recovery journey. It demonstrated selflessness, but also contentment and strength.
I have a history of mental illness, I understand what he is going through, and I seem to be one of the few people that he trusts with his inner most feelings. I hold no judgement, and the empathy I have means that I am able to help him through his tough days.
Speaking to Terry on the phone sometimes does bring back memories. Sometimes he will say a certain word or laugh a certain way. Occasionally it will bring a wave of sadness over me, but then I am able to release that sadness, and manifest it into further strength.
I know that he hurt me, and if I am being completely honest with you guys, I haven’t forgiven him entirely. The hurt is still present, more so on some days than others. However, I have accepted the reality of the situation, and I am welcoming the future with open arms. I am excited to be taking control of my life!!
You see guys, the journey of your own recovery is a funny one. No two of us will walk the same path, I know that Victoria and I certainly are not. It is important to remind yourself that you are strong, and that every day is an opportunity to grow that little bit more. There is no rush, and occasionally you may feel that you are going backwards. That is okay too!
Some days you will need that extra bit of support, and other days you will be filled with a sense of contentment.
Remember, regardless of where you are in your journey, you are strong, and you will get through the tough times. We believe in you.